His Smile.......

 

Kece kan?

Ganteng kan?

Manis kan?

Senyumnya menggoda iman kan?

Iyalaahhh. Secara gitu dia kakak gue B)

Alm. Ahmad Yanuar Ardie

Yang sempet gue omongin di postingan gue yg sebelumnya.

Bittersweet.

Sarah's

Hey, how's life?

Today's sucks, ryt?

I'm feelin' sooooo sensitive today. Maybe it's bcs i'm on my period but...... forget it.

I'm going to ask u something.

Why I'm so easy to get jealous?

Those feelin is killin me softlyyyyyy.

Well, gue mau melanjutkan curhatan gue. Semakin hari gue makin depresi dan sensitive bgt. Gatau kenapa, otak sama hati suka gak sejalan. Belum lagi kadang gue suka negative thinking-_-

Taugak gimana rasanya ngeliat lo, lo, dan lo? gue ngerasa kayak terbang ke kutub utara, kedinginan terus dilempar beruang kutub sampe laut merah dan akhirnya mati tenggelam gara2 kemasukan aer dan nyesek. Oke itu cuma kiasan-_- tapi serius deh, gue ngerasa kayak........*jleb**jleb**jleb**jleb*

Tiara juga suka curhat ke gue dan dia blg dia juga ngerasain hal yang.......gitudeh. Dan kadang gue cuma bisa bilang ke dia "yaudahlah ti, biarin aja" padahal sebenernya gue juga rada gak terima. Tapi mau gimana lagii dia seneng, mereka seneng, dan gue? masih ada temen2 gue yg selalu bisa bikin gue seneng dan ngelupain semua itu. Kadang pas ngeliat 'mereka' gue cuma mikir "Staypo fir, biarin aja. Abaikan, abaikan. Staypo!" dan kadang itu ngefek di gue. 

Gue ngerasa kalau dia kayaknya udh agak marah sama sikap gue. Tapi......seharusnya dia bisa ngertiin gue dikit kek elah. Sapa gue kek ajak ngobrol kek apaan kek. Tapi apaan? gak pernah. TemenbaruTemenbaruTemenbaruTemenbaru. Gue ngerasa kayak........terbuang. Wk.

Gue pengen bisa ngelupain itu semua, mengabaikan lo. Tapi gabisa. U r my friend, I love u sooo much. Dan gue gabisa marah atau mengabaikan temen gue yg gue sayang bgt gitu aja. Jadi gue bener2 diambang di 2 perasaan....................wkabaikan-_- 

Hari ini si stalker kece(bong) berubah bgt menurut gue. Dulu, kalo misalnya 10 menit gue gbls sms dia dia pst sms gue nanyain gue kemana atau apalah. Tapi sekarang? gapernah. Gue mau stalker gue yg dulu. Yang selalu bisa bikin gue speechless. Gak malah bikin gue badmood. Tapi pas gue mikir itu, gue baru sadar. Gue bukan siapa2nya. Temen2nya itu pst lebih penting. Jadi.........yaudahlah. Staypo.

Hari ini di NF gue diajairn untuk gak ngeliat sesuatu dari satu sudut pandang, katanya gue harus tanya pendapat orang lain juga. Tapi kadang gue gabisa mengutarakan. Jadi gue suka mendem semuanya sendiri dan jadi suka negative thinking. Dear asyaninisnisatiarathifalsarah dan tmn2 gue yg deket sama gue, pls help me to forget all of 'this'. Gue udh pernah ngerasain semua ini dulu, sama. Persis. Cuma kali ini gue gabisa marah ke 'pelaku'nya kyk dulu. Karena gue terlalu 'fallin in love' sama mereka. Ya Allah, gue gamau kehilangan temen2 gue yg bener2 gue syg bgt2222an. Dan.....gue berharap ada yg bisa ngertiin gue :'|

Tapi.......who would have known how bittersweet this would taste? 

Maaf yg udh bosen ngeliat gue cerita kyk gini. Tapi....gue sendiri gabisa cerita secara lisan-_-

Hey mirror, here we are again.

Uh, With everything happening today

You don't know whether you're coming or going

But you think that you're on your way

life lined up on the mirror, don't blow it (Whoo!)

Look at me when I'm talking to you

You lookin' at me, but I'm lookin' through you

I see the blood in your eyes

I see the love in disguise

I see the pain hidden in your pride

I see you're not satisfied

And I don't see nobody elseI see myself

I'm lookin' at the

Chorus - Bruno Mars:

Mirror on the wall

Here we are again (yeah)

Through my rise and fall (uh)

You've been my only friend (yeah)

You told me that they can 

understand the man I am

So why are we here

Talking to each other again?

I see the truth in your lies

I see nobody by your side

But I'm with you when you're all alone

And you correct me when I'm lookin' wrong

I see the guilt beneath the shame

I see your soul through your windowpane

I see the scars that remain

I see you Wayne

I'm looking at the

Chorus - Bruno Mars:

Mirror on the wall

Here we are again (yeah)

Through my rise and fall (uh-huh)

You've been my only friend (my only friend)

You told me that they can

understand the man I am (they can understand)

So why are we here (misunderstood)

Talking to each other again?

Looking at me now, I can see my past

Damn, I look just like my freakin' Dad

Light it up, that's smoke and mirrors

I even look good in a broken mirror

I see my Mama's smile, that's a blessing

I see the change; I see the message

And no message coulda been any clearer

So I'm starting with the man in the

Chorus - Bruno Mars:

Mirror on the wall (MJ taught me that)

Here we are again

Through my rise and fall (uh)

You've been my only friend (take 'em to Mars, man)

You told me that they can

understand the man I am

So why are we

Talking to each other again?

Mirror on the wall

Here we are again (yeah)

Through my rise and fall

You've been my only friend (any questions)

You told me that they can (I come to you)

understand the man I am (you always have the answer)

So why are we here

Talking to each other again?

Mirror on the wall (Hey BP, looks like I did take 'em to Mars this time)

So why are we talking to each other again?

Lil Wayne ft. Bruno Mars - Mirror

Life's so unfair.

Hey, long time no see. H-44, National Exam. Dan bukannya gue malah lebih rajin atau semacemnya, gue malah jadi sering bgt badmood.
Life's so unfair, ryt? mungkin bagi kalian enggak. Tapi bagi gue?
Gue cuma suka ngerasa kalau kenapa yg lain bisa cuek dgn semua hal2 yg sebenernya bikin mereka down. Kenapa gue gak bisa? kenapa gue selalu kesel, galau, bete atau apalah pas ngeliat something yg bener2 bikin gue jealous atau semacemnya?
Somebody please tell me, why I'm so easy to mad, jealous, badmood or somethin lyk that?
Gue suka gabisa ngontrol emosi gue. Dan saat itu juga gue ngerasa kalo semuanya aneh. Everything's so unfair. Dan pasti ada aja masalah atau sesuatu yg bikin gue makin kesel atau semacemnya. Ya temen gue jadi marah ke guelah, apalah. Dan gue sebenernya juga gamau jadi kyk gini. Thifal selalu nyuruh gue untuk ngelupain semua. Tapi gue gabisa.
Gue sendiri gasuka dengan sikap gue yg sekarang ini. Karena gue ngerasa hal ini malah bikin banyak bgt masalah.
Maaf bgt222an buat orang2 yg udh pernah jadi 'korban' gue. I didn't mean to..........Sorry for every trouble. For everything.

"Every teardrop is a waterfall. And my tears is really lyk a waterfall when its fall."